Terrified I am...

Terrified I am of life without meaning
Horrified I am that I do not exist
Madness is a night made of feat

Alone I feel when lightening strikes
Bereft I feel in a room full of friends
Loneliness is a heart full of tears

Shades I draw down upon myself
Blinds I draw to close the window of mine eye
None will see the sadness in the mirror


Away I run to a place only for me
Far do I run where grief cannot follow
Away it goes as the dawn appears








Copyright 1995

The Beyond and the Before

Far into the future is a moment we cannot see
Beyond is a vastness we cannot know
Before is the life we must live

Intertwined are the beyond and before
Like a sunset blends with horizon's wave
Different as night fron day
Yet without the one is the other pointless

All that begins shall soon end
And in ending begin afresh




Copyright 1994

If I

If I float awhile

I see where I might go

If I focus

I am there

If I promise to try

I fail

If I persevere

I make progress

So many ifs can waste a dream

So many worries bore it

Copyright 1994

Fleeting is Love

Body and soul bereft of hope

Bitter feelings badly loaned

Hearts desire from heaven sent

Hardly measured ere hastily spent

April passions awakened fires

Another touch arise desire

Deeper still denied too long

Dangerous games and days of song

Cold wind, clear night

Cruel love cannot fight

November rain near the end

Not twice to love, no never again

Copyright 1994

Beyond

Think beyond tomorrow

But remember to live in today

The space between the first cautious

Motions of our lives

And the unhindered run

Is a chasm

Once the bridge is crossed

Time is no longer a constraint

This then is the bridge

And I have crossed it

Though I refuse to rush headlong

Down the path before me

I am no longer still

The past is but a memory

The now is my adventure

My future is in sight

Copyright 1994

The Person

There is a person inside there

whom I would very much like to meet.

But he won't come out.

He is not afraid;

merely unaware of this other place.

Where he is, he stays warm and safe.

His life is his own

and cannot be ruled by any other.

He can cause things to be

within the walls of his mind.

One day,

perhaps he will share them with me.

Until that day,

I remain faithful and patient,

Knowing that the person inside there

is a person whom I would like to meet.

Copyright 1993

Blessed and Perfect

I have seen the rocks

I have heard the wind

I have tasted morning's dew

I have touched a star

I have known darkness and light

I have felt the most tender of loves

But I have never witnessed a sun so bright

Nor seen horizons so far

As the one upon which you tread

As blessed and perfect as you are 

Copyright 1992

Why Black

Because his essence is oft misunderstood

He encompasses all color

To him all color flows

Nothing can hide upon his face

For his is darker than all

Stars may shine within his depths

To call weary pilgrims home

Feared and falsely brightened has been his shade

Though he minds not

For he alone believes what is

Without darkness

There can be no light

Copyright 1992

Thought with Question

Open a book to see words upon pages;

The merest fraction of knowledge to be achieved.

Oh the wisdom of the ages contained therein;

A grandness passed from eye to mind,

Delivering the future one breath at a time.

In the mind, thoughts form to be used,

Not limited to what can only be proven.

What is truth but thought imprisoned

Within the body of fact?

Copyright 1992

Indiscriminate Winds

When I move I lose focus
And the vision of who I am
Shimmers and blows away
Like a hot breeze whips desert sands

If I don't move at all
My life is a dune
Shapeless and insubstantial
Subject to the indiscriminate
Winds of change

Views

What makes a person contrary?

Why do some decry the strange or different view?

Why must I hide and be wary?

What makes me less valid than you?